Dont give up…
i dont know what went wrong, how it went wrong or what happend i just know this is killing me. Losing you isnt one of the easiest things to do, its actually one of the hardest things cause looking back to it, only you could hurt me. I didn’t give up because the thought of holding on so long made me want to hang on more because i knew one day, just one we were going to be together. Im sorry for everything iv done to you & im sorry for hurting you, one thing im not sorry for is falling in love with you & making you happy. I know we were both drifting apart but we could’ve fixed it. For me it isn’t over. Im sorry for all the weight i put on you & all the tears i made you shed, not the happy tears. Im sorry for all the things that have been thrown at you even though you dont deserve it & im sorry i cant be there for you. Im sorry some people dont see you like i see you & im sorry you had to leave me. You know, your the closest from perfect anyone will ever be especially me. You told me you were living in a black whole & i just sat here with tears running through my cheeks thinking, i was the one who would always pull you out. I might not be enough but one thing is for sure, i love you with everything i got. You dont know how much id give up to be with you right now, to make everything right & how its supossed to be, to just be able to snuggle up next to you, bury my head in your chest, & interlock my fingers with yours. I’d be able to look up at you & smile whenever i wanted to. I’d be able to lean up & kiss you whenever i wanted to. I’d be able to tell you how i feel about you whenever i wanted to. Appriciate things before there gone, learn from mistakes before you do them again & dont give up. I just want you to fight for me a little is that to much to ask for ? after a year & a half ? i know, i might be anoying or kissing ass right now but hey, fuck it right ? i fight for what i love & i love YOU. Theres plenty of people out there, out here, in this world, but i know for a fact that noone will ever love you like i do, noone will put up with this or fight for this like i do. i just hope you realize one day that i do truely love you for who you are inside. Dont get me wrong, your gorgeous always will be that girl that amazes me with her looks & her personality. Also knew how to crack a retarded smile on my face. i hope you get to read this before its to late, but i love you, i adore you, i need you. i miss you. This thursday is our anniverssary i dont know if it still goes on, but Happy 1 year & 6 month Anniverssary <3 Take care of yourself, dont let anyone tell you otherwise because you know your worth the world. i hope you find happiness, im sure you will dont worry. if anything ill be here. i promised you, ill always be here for anything. By the way, im still wearing our promise ring, just thought id let you know. I love you mi amor. Atleast i could say i fought for this.
But you never know, Things happen for a reason.
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